okay, this is exactly what is going on in my head. questions, concerns, fears and excitement?? um,

question: how does one stop being afraid when religion is questionable. do i really believe in faith or did my philosophy teacher convinced me that the most important thing in life is to love and to take care of nature and live for the breath of air that you inhale everyday? say good morning to the sun and good night to the moon and thank your heart for feeling the inspiration of the day that is to come. take care of your neighbor and don't be negative because being a negative person (as well as dramatic) ruins the appreciation of the day for other people. let's say that a person just got the greatest news that it totally makes their day, then here i come with my negativity because things in life are not going my way. example: am i suppose to make myself happy and not think of others feelings or of other peoples lives??

my fiancee is currently over seas. he is a MARINE and has been ever since july of 2000. he got deployed in january and i miss him terribly. he is by far the only person that i can tell everything to. i guess the only thing to do is to keep myself busy. for now i have projects to think about for my photography class. so, i guess i'll go to hollywood & vine to take pictures of the protesters. it will be the "5th anniversary of the Iraq Invasion" protest. if you can make it then support the the protesters and to bring back home our troops. i'll be hiding behind the camera snapping pictures away. this will be one of the ways to release stress and not have to bother anyone with my problems. hey maybe after i'll go to the beach and snap some more... i just planned my day for tomorrow. have a good night.

Tags: fiancee, hollywood & vine, iraq, marines, moon, philosophy, photography, stress, sun, troops
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